As soon as I left office
I knew I am in for a long snail speed ride home. In this city, sadly pouring
rains have become a synonym of traffic jams. At times, I feel that the long
lines of the motorcade are just stopping to salute the mother nature. Anyways after
the ceremonious splashing of muddy water on me and followed my ritual of
cribbing and shouting why god why .. why me.. I boarded the bus. I was pulled
out of reverie by a laughter of some guy who was sitting behind me. The
guy ( hereafter will be called as laughter guy) was still laughing. There was
an attraction in his laughter. The laughter guy was sitting with a gal (as per
my assumption she must be a close friend).
The gal: So when is
later?
The laughter guy: You
cannot force me to retrospect. I should get that feeling from within but ask me
what do you wanna know?
The gal: Hmmm.. Is
your believe in God shaken?
The laughter guy: Nope,
My believes are strong. They cannot be shaken this easily. I am against the
prevailing idea of God so as per your definition, I am still an atheist. By the
way, do u think all the troubles in my life is intentionally created by god to
force me to join the devotee gang and proves his point. I can assure you if god
exists he surely above all this saas bahu drama inspired plots.
The gal: What do you
mean by prevailing idea?
The laughter guy: Yeah
.. I should have been more specific.. I do not agree with your idea of God
(laughed again) ...paused I think of god of as a very good book.
Books can only give us direction and clues. They cannot do more than that. We
have to help ourselves. We have to pull ourselves up.
The gal: You are
becoming philosophical
l
l
The laughter guy: You
asked for it ..
The gal: Acha tell me if
you are an atheist, then why did you say you have faith?
The laughter guy: Cannot
I have faith on myself or may be it is a wrong choice of word . hmmm I said I
have faith but what I meant was that I have faith in my hard work and my conduct.
Well, I am not saying that I never felt low or anxious, but I realized that
this is faith is the only thing that can pull me up. I have to trust my
struggle and that is the only way out. As they say nothing worth having come
easy.
The gal: What is the
biggest lesson that you have learnt ?
The laughter guy: Hmmm..
so many lessons .. so many times I felt that all these things that are
happening to me are breaking some shackles with in me and strangely making me
more receptive for life. This whole phase has definitely bursted the little
bubble that I was staying in and brought me closer to life, and my other
lessons are already well articulated by others .. I felt I have realized
things that I already knew/read/heard.
The gal: Do you think
life will get better for you?
The Laughter guy: As if
the It has any other option.
The bus stopped with a
jerk at the last stop. I got up thinking that I will see the face of the
laughter guy but he was lost in the deluge of people alighting the bus.
